Life doesn't wait

Some ppl don't understand that life doesn't wait for you to be ready. That was a pretty clear message from the forever-will-be-top-rom-com-in-my-heart movie, 'A Lot Like Love', telling us how we can't live our lives in a serial circuit, waiting for all the great things in life to come to you one by one, one after another. Life is a parallel circuit. Things (or s**ts) happen all the time. Destiny comes around the corner and you take whatever you can. You may not be great at multi-tasking but you hope that at the end of the day the goods will outweight the bads, that friends and love ones would carry you through hard times, that you'll come out the other end clean and learnt from your mistakes along the way. What if it takes a thousand mistakes for you to get it right? Can you afford to do it all one after another? Life's too short. Living life in series and you'll find you'll miss many trains.

I saw one of my friends' photo with his gf and it just dawned on me how it felt so right. I never thought I'd seen them in that sorta light but they really seemed happy and complete right there in the moment the picture was captured. Why do ppl with gf/bf have a glow about them? Are all great things really made in pairs? Why?

"Oliver, this is life. It doesn't wait for you to get back on your feet" - Graham ('A Lot Like Love" 2005)

25 Things about me

I've seen the 25 random things tag on facebook that has been circulating around and it didn't catch my attention until I read my brother's. Then I realised I really dunno a whole lot about him. So here I attempt to have my own version of the 25 random things about me.

1) Mum, Dad and my brother are the 3 greatest rolemodels in my life, whom which sum up who I am today. I always think I've got problem-solving and logical thinking from my dad while I've got the abstract thinking and sensitivity from my mum.

2) I follow my brother foot steps in many many things that I do. Usually, I couldn't do it as well as he does but I'm very happy with the things that I did and partially thankful that I'm not as good as he is or else I would've felt obligated to fulfil those potentials. These things include maths, soccer, badminton, athletics, mindgames, photography, carpentry and many other outdoor activites eg. rockclimbing, kayaking, bush walking, cycling, skiing, sailing, etc.

3) In yr 2003, I walked 100.3 km at Wombat state forest within 24 hrs. That was the first time I see a live full adult size red kangaroo jumping right past my face. In yr 2005, I cycled over 200km around Port Phillips bay under 12 hrs in a cycling event 'Around the bay in a day'. I was the last person to have gone over the Westgate bridge on the day and hence the last person to complete the event on the day. My bike computer registered 228.69km on that day. I would now like to attempt a 400+km drive under 6 hrs, hopefully in 2009.

4) I'm shortsighted with -6.25 (RHS) and -5.75 (LHS) and I also have astigmatism. It's a misconception that I'm a nerd because I wear thick glasses. I have poor eyesight owing to the genetic factor and my habit of watching TV in the dark when I was little in fear of waking my parents up. I've worn my glasses for over 15 yrs.

5) My last contact with girls before Uni was back in kindergarden given that I've been through all-boys primary and highschool. I remember being matched with one girl in second yr kindergarden whom I was teased about as being my gf. Her nickname was Nina.

6) I'm a Buddhist even though I went to christian primary and secondary school. During the 6 yrs in highschool, I had at least 4 bible readings every week, including half an hr chapel service on Sunday. I found that the more services I attended, the more repelled from christianity I felt.

7) I've only ever got one gf in my life despite what people around me think. I'm quite picky, like how I am with other aspects of my life.

8) I've been lazy all my life. My occasional displays of diligence almost always initiated from 'lazy' motives. It's always about achieving optimal results with minimal input and don't talk to me about doing things the last minute.

9) I enjoy reading quite a variety of novels but romantic novels are usually my preference when I want to relax my brain. My favourite romantic novel authors are Nicholas Sparks and กิ่งฉัตร (Thai novels). My life changing book is 'Ice Station' by Matthew Reilly which is the only book I've personally gone to ask for the author's autograph in my copy of the book.

10) I think I have a big personal space. I like doing things by myself and sometimes I can live by myself for a month without much human contact at all.

11) I used to grow up thinking my whole family is fat. Coincidentally, my mum nicknamed me 'Pui' which means chubby or fat in Hokkien.

12) I'm a very self-centered person. I have problem accepting what my mind doesn't like, to the point that I develop a way of tricking my brain into accepting things.

13) I live my life in patterns and so I have the urge to organise things into blocks, physically and imaginatively. I also have a fear of forgeting things which doesn't go well with my poor short term memory. I usually do a quick room sweep before leaving and I get caught up when I lost something as simple as a pen. I often forget what I want to say or do and am quite dependent on reminder notes. I used to get very upset when my mum washed away the 'notes' I accidentally left in my jeans' pocket.

14) I once thought that I would never grow out of playing games. I usually play computer games because I never own a PS, Nintendo, X-Box, Wii, etc. At 19, I got over it and stopped playing computer games. Now I only limit myself to boardgames.

15) I like drawing although I used to be terrible at it. I owe my dexterity to a comic called 'Conan' which I secretly bought with my lunch money behind my mum when I was little. Sketching Conan's character was how I started drawing but now I mainly sketch portraits. I still sux.

16) I have many regrets in life. I've done some terrible things the first few years away from home and I upset many ppl along the way. I think leaving home early was how I learnt to be a bit more considerate towards others.

17) I have a hunch back before starting dentistry due to my reading-in-bed habit.

18) I have numeral scars on my bodies. One on my head and one on my right wrist from broken window glass. One on the back of my right hand where a small greenish lump was excised. 2 on my right elbow from two seperate falls off the bike. A few on my left ankle and foot from a fall off a big rock.

19) Before 2007, I never thought Facebook could become the thing like many others of its kind such as Tagged, Multiply, Hi5 etc.

20) I own my first mobile phone in 1st year uni, the one which I'm still using today. I never own a pager, bluetooth or any other gadgets that became popular from time to time except a 30GB Ipod video.

21) I had my near death experience in Dec 2004 when I returned from phuket less than 24 hrs before Tsunami wiped the whole beach and most things 3km in land. I took a picture as I was walking on the pier without knowing that it would never be the same again.

22) I considered myself to be a lucky person. I was lucky even before I was born. My parents wanted 2 kids and my mum had a miscarriage before having my brother. I've almost never been born but I'm glad I'm my mum's boy for every minutes of my life.

23) I think that since it's my 23rd birthday, I shall end this 25 random things at 23.

Learning things the hard way

There's always a first time for everything, including a needle stick injury.

With everything in life, I find that we never really learn anything despite having been told over and over because it still feels like a fantasy that you can't relate to. But once it happened to yourself, it became a reality that's hard to forget and so we live through life making mistakes, one after another.

I've made mistakes, so many mistakes these past 5 yrs. I've made people cry. I've made some people lose faith. I've made people angry. I've made enemies without knowing. I've made some gain to my patient's loss but I'm grateful for their sacrifice. Many thanks to those who put up with me and guided me with kindness and compassion. I hope one day I'll be capable of giving it back.

I've always thought that I'm generally a lucky person. There were a lot of mistakes in my life but they were little ones that set me back but never really took me down. It almost seems like those were designed not to cause me grief but to make me learn things in life, predetermined check points. It's like another hurdle to jump over and I get stronger after each one.

Sometimes my knees knocked the bar and bruised but I never catch the bar by the foot and fall... like a rock.

Thoughts: Know when to remember, when to forget and when to forgive.

Who bit the Apple?

I've been curious for a while now on this question.
Why does McIntosh apple (MAC) have to be half bitten and Who bit it?

Me came up with 3 random answers

A: Adam - bcos "we were born to break rules", in reference to christian's belief of Adam eating the forbidden fruit of knowledge (maybe an apple?) and hence the term Adam's apple. *shrug*

B: Isaac - bcos he got hungry after too much thinking, in reference to Isaac Newton discovering gravity.

C: An angry orange - in reference to my Photo5's 'Domestic Violence'

So...

do you think like a Christian, a Scientist or my friend?
Feel free to drop in more answers =)

อย่างน้อย

ในชีวิต เคยถูกคนปฏิเสธของขวัญวันเกิดบ้างหรือเปล่า

เธอเคยบอกเราว่า มีแต่คนทำให้เธอผิดหวังในวันเกิดเสมอ
เราก็อยากจะทำให้เธอมีความสุข เพราะเราคิดว่าทุกๆคน สมควรที่จะมีสิ่งดีๆเข้ามาในชีวิตบ้าง อย่างน้อยก็ในวันเกิดของตัวเอง
เรานั่งทำการ์ดวันเกิดให้เธอตั้งแต่ 3 อาทิตย์ก่อน จนเพื่อนคนอื่นมันว่าเราบ้า
เรานั่งคิดหาอะไรให้เธอทำสนุกๆ เธอก็ไม่สนใจ
เราจะพาเธอไปเลี้ยงอาหารเช้าข้างนอกในวันเกิดก่อนไปทำงาน เธอก็คงไม่ต้องการอีก
อาทิตย์ก่อนเราไปเที่ยวงาน moomba กับเพื่อน เล่นเกมส์ตามซุ้มเอารางวัล ดูพลุจนงานจะจบ เพื่อนก็จะกลับกันหมดแล้ว
เธอคงไม่รู้ว่าวันนั้น เราก็ยังคิดถึงเธอ คิดว่าเธอคงชอบตุ๊กตามาริโอ้ที่เป็นรางวัลใหญ่ของบางซุ้ม
เราไม่เคยคิดจะอยากได้เลยยยย แต่เราก็แยกจากเพื่อน กลับเข้าไปเล่นจนชนะ หวังจะให้เป็นของขวัญเธอ
ถ้าเธอไม่เอา เราก็ไม่รู้จะเก็บไว้ทำไม อยากได้ก็เปล่า เสียเงิน เสียเวลา เก็บไว้ก็เสียความรู้สึก
เธอบอก...ว่ามีแต่คนทำให้เธอผิดหวังในวันเกิด
แล้วเธอเคยคิดบ้างไม้ ว่าตัวเธอเองก็คอยแต่จะปฏิเสธความหวังดีคนอื่น
เธอบอก...ว่ามีแต่คนทำให้เธอผิดหวังในวันเกิด
เธอคงไม่รู้อีกแหล่ะว่ามีคนทำให้เราผิดหวังทุกๆวัน แม้แต่กับคนที่เราหวังดีด้วยและคอยให้ตลอด ไม่ต้องรอให้ถึงวันเกิดเราหรอก
เธอบอก...ว่าเข้าใจ เข้าใจว่าความสุขอยู่ที่การให้มากกว่าที่การรับ แต่เธอก็ไม่ขอรับเอาไว้
ถ้าความสุขมันอยู่ที่การให้จริง แล้วที่เธอปฏิเสธของที่เราให้มันหมายความว่าอะไร เธอไม่อยากให้เรามีความสุขหรอ
ช่างไม่เข้าใจอะไรเลย

แต่เอาเถอะ นับจากวินาทีนี้จะเป็นวันเกิดเธอ
24 ชั่วโมงของเธอที่เราจะไม่ทำให้เธอผิดหวัง แม้เธอจะไม่ต้องการมันก็ตาม
บางครั้งก็เบื่อ เบื่อตัวเองที่ยังเป็นอย่างนี้ เหนื่อย...เหนื่อยที่คอยแต่จะเป็นคนให้
และเหนื่อยที่สุดกับการให้ที่คนรับไม่ต้องการ

"ความพยายามที่ทำเพื่อเธอ จะขอทำต่อไป แค่มีรอยยิ้มของเธอส่งมา ก็ชื่นใจ..."

Sometimes I wish you'd listened

Why did you ask me, twice, if you don't care about what I have to say anyway?

girls...

Mario's

I went out to have a late breakfast today at a place called Mario's on Brunswick st and I saw this menu.
"Tofu ball with soba noodle, bok choi, mushroom, capsicum, chilli and soy"
My mind wondered how asian can one dish gets and how much of a loner would capsicum feels.

While sitting there, my eyes dashed to the side and saw a toilet sign.
Thought one day I will say this to someone.
"I wish we could always be like a toilet sign"
and this was the image in my head.









=)